mistakes: made any?

It's all about time and what is new one second, becomes old and forgotten the next second. We all have a journey to complete ahead in our life with uncountable milestones and numerous obstacles... out of the topic a bit, but this line reminds me of takeshi's castle :P damn i miss that show! anyway coming back on track, a journey on which we set upon to give our self a motive to live and define our ways. The morning everyday brings with it new surprises, a package of hopes and beliefs. I too wake up everyday thinking, what if today turns out to be that extra-ordinary day where i don't commit a single mistake and set ahead my footsteps for the rest of the day..but that never happens :P i have to make at least one mistake through out the day. But then flaws makes one awesome B)



Thinking of the past, there are huge blunders i have made and coming to think of it now, maybe I wasn't given a good set of choices or maybe i was too bad at the whole decision making process.

1. First mistake, I made few pathetic people my "so called friends". Oh yeah, they deserve the word pathetic and i would love to cross the line to define them with some of the most absurd adjectives in the dictionary but why waste time, energy and words :P all of them are precious :D Actually thanks to them that now i have such a great set of friends. What i learnt from this was that, do NOT trust one much unless you feel fully comfortable. Friends reminds me, how much i enjoyed that series so far, it's one of the most hilarious and fun show i have seen...any of you reading this who had not seen friends must see it ASAP..

2. Whoever said love is beautiful forgot its a joint account with something called  a "relationship" which has it's own terms and conditions and also some hidden issues. Wake up people, life is not a fairy tale and there is no one perfect for us. I have been in quite a few relationships and as per my personal experience, i would say it's a waste of time and emotions. Every time I decided not to let the seriousness factor get in between, it somehow did and i miserably failed. Soft hearts like me have to go through some tagged dialogues like "it was nothing great, move on!" or "oh! get over it, there are a lot of fish in the ocean." Saying is hell easy, come and do it bitches, you will feel it then. Lol! i can  actually do an entire thesis on relationships but too boring it would be. And so if you suck at the whole relationship stuff, how about trying something called "flirtationship", no term and conditions, not at all exclusive and you can have all the fish in the ocean. ;)

3. Ah! This mistake I am sure i have a lot of people with me :D Has there been times when you started with something with full enthusiasm and left it incomplete 'cause it was uninteresting and boring. I have done that a  millions of times and i am not proud of it at all. Quite regretful I would say. There comes times till date in my life where i go like "only if i had done that" :| Trust me it's a terrible feeling and something literally eats me up inside. So if possible, try completing the under construction work and start some men at work sites.





Spoke about mistakes enough eh, i know no one likes to hear about mistakes and regret about it. But this not any shitty piece of advice, its something where while reading you would find your own mistakes in mine and the rest who didn't can enjoy their ice-scream without a spill.

And when you tired of making mistakes, why not escape to a new place where no one cares and no one gives a damn about what you do. Where it's all about you and your dreams and how you chase it...

mumbai : the city of dreams!

Have an amazing summer, make it your own way, make some mistakes and rectify few of them. After its summer, a little controversial and interesting it has to be, otherwise the charm of summer gets lost  and you lose all the fun.





Go ahead make some new friends, do some new stuff, grab a beer and chill out \m/

cheers!

The drama, the gossip and the limelight..

Past five months have been the worst of my life so far. So much happened in so little time and the drama, yes that is more spicier than the ones running on television.... Here in my college I bet people never run out of topics to talk 'cause they get all the gossip they want to. Gossip reminds me, a very close of friend of mine who LOVES to gossip and for his this habit I call him gay :P Boys don't be surprised please. The favourite topic of discussion shifts from soccer and cricket to "what's the relationship status of that hot chick" and "what's the scene between the couple boss?" talks. And nothing surprising also and neither am I denying that we girls don't but we atleast accept the fact :P

 Recently in a regular conversation, some one mentioned how we all are no less than 90210...and later i thought about it and laughed and he was so damn right...No one likes being in the limelight for the bad, and no one likes to be stared at when walking around either but when you know what's the truth and how you are, walk with your head high plus ignorance is bliss. Not to forget more the people you know, more you will be talked about.




When the fire is ready to be lit, a lot of hands with the fuel come forward but none raise their hands to stop the fire. I don't  blame those individuals who love talking about people behind the back and gossip and bitch around about them because this place does not leave one with any option better than that. I am not saying that I don't gossip but yes i don't instigate a rumour nor do I give one a lift by confirming it. Some in this process do not realize that the other person might just lose all the respect he or she ever held around people. Whatever one might say, but i would always say do not just judge the book by it's cover, you never know what's the story inside. I know most of you who are reading this by now must have guessed the stories,situation and the characters. But then, me and all of us learnt a lesson and will never forget it. Whatever the circumstance is, some turn out to be the victim and some are guilty.

A mindset is something that doesn't take much time to change. If you were known for the good and now you are known for the bad then rectify your mistakes and make them realize that a few actions cannot change who you are and what will you always be. Obstacles a part of the game of life and all of them can be crossed with the help of some dedication and confidence. I have always been there for my friends and situations were such that i had to choose my friend over the right, but then i faced the storm with them and sailed with them on the rough sea knowing that it might take forever to witness the clear sky.

Every gossip and rumour fades away with time, and so does bad times of life. Ups and downs are an important ingredient in the recipe of "how to survive life"! So go ahead and live the world however you want to, because at the end of the day people who love you will be there to welcome you back with their open arms and walk with you the rest of the journey. And if that doesn't help  :p sometimes revenge is a dish best served cold for whatever disaster ever happened with you! ;) :P

cheers !

For the man I will always love !

For every daughter or son her/his dad is the best in the whole world and so is mine for me. Writing about him is probably the best thing i can ever write about. At times when you need that one pillar of support, one ray of hope and that one hand to hold during the black days, I look up to my father. There are some terrible mistakes that i have made and probably no one would ever forgive me for them, but he always did and took me back with his wide arms open. When everyone turns their back on me, he is the one who accepts me with all my flaws.

   There are countless memories with him and all of those fresh in my mind and heart because none of them are worth to be forgotten. I had my first ever drink with my dad not just for the sake of drinking but because he did not want to get embarrased later on if he came to know that i drank, but he can be proud that i had my first drink with him.

picture source : Amrath Sait

a friend's amazing photography caught this click and every time i see this picture i remember my beach days :) really the safest craddle is a father's arm !

A father is a very important existence in one's life and for me the most important. A friend with whom I can share all of what i have been through, all my success, my failures, humiliations and proud moments, a buddy, a mentor and a great father at the end of everything. And so today i am writing this 'cause i have nothing to give him for all what he did ever for me, thank you is nothing and gifts won''t reach all the way to the other continent :P plus it would be from his on credit card and that''s like he gifting himself something, not cool :P

So this is what I can do maximum to make him feel special on his special day. I have always been there on all your birthdays from the past 17 years and this one blame college and not me. But then even from miles away I am sure my best wishes, love and blessing will reach you no matter where your are. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

                                             

                          You are still young, don't mind me passing those " you have become old " comments, it's just me, and youth is a state of mind, you know it ;) you are the coolest dad i have seen and i am so lucky to have you. :D

My evergreen hero and my first love, yes you are :)

have a great birthday and don't miss me too much :*

limits and love

this one was long time back i had written but never really put it up :)


Endless and exclusive,
no rules,no limits and no bounds
thats how i learnt to love 
and will keep on loving.

Fearing none, caring least of the world,
I do not love to live rather i live to love
promised to be there till my last breathe
and after death my soul by your side

Had lost all hopes,to love and to be loved,
u guided me to a beginning with u
never expected you to happen
but now love the happening

Dedicating myself to you,denying rest's thoughts 
at the end of the day,all i know is i love you
its u who matters and not the world
'cause its u who taught me to love and be loved again

Taste of Life!

There are a hell lot of life changing moments that happen everyday and some are just way too prominent to always leave their footprints in our lives. Some with which we just have to walk with and some to leave behind. But the sad part is when you see something similar happening to a close one of yours through which we have already been through. Hurts to the core and brings back those moments which we never wanted to recall. About such situations what i learnt is to make the best effort to stop others to make the same mistakes which are responsible for a disturbed present which was once a pleasant past. No, i did not just mix up the words. It’s just how everything just falls into its place and some just don’t.

First of all to make sure we do not have that someday when we sit alone and at the back of our mind we regret some decisions. So please don’t make any decision in haste and give everything a time. Thinking too much is also a big danger for the decision. Sometimes we need to act selfless and think about the consequences that the people connected to our life would face after we decide for ourselves. I know we don’t have time to sit and ponder about every small thing but those small things build up to the big stories of our lives. I was asked how can I be so affected by two other people being separated and my answer was ‘cause I was in those shoes and walking in them is a task that is not easy. I am no guru to advice on life, love and decisions, but I am that one person who has tasted that bite of life, love and decisions and it was not a good experience over all. But again one should have the cook’s best and the worst make.

Every sculptor is not a perfectionist at his work but by every flaw he makes in one of his sculpture he makes sure not to repeat it. Not only that, he in fact learns from the flaws of others and makes none of those blunders. The same way as much as we learn from our own mistakes, we are supposed to learn more from other’s to make our self someone better. A friend of mine mentioned once that life would be boring if it was less complicated, and yes i would not agree less.

So if someone is responsible for that frown on your face, you be responsible for a smile on someone’s face. If life was the way we wanted it, it would have been less twisted and interesting. Not that it being all twisted is making everyday any easier. But it all comes with the package. Give everything a chance and what if it might just turn out to be what we craved for.

This piece i wrote not to send a message to all of you reading this but it was just an effort of me to let you all not face what I went through. A part of everything is good but not too much of it. Anyway readers, go back to what you were up to and once again do not think too much and just go with the flow but grip to the precious things in your life.

Cheers people!

Unfound reasons

                                                        

Sleepless nights pass by

With blank thoughts in my mind

Feeling nothing at all

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Alone and not a soul to comfort,

Emptiness is my new friend

Never leaves, never betrays

Never lies nor does hurt.

 

Clinging onto me and my all

Those memories have taken control

On my mind, heart and soul

And I unable to find an escape

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Not a hand to hold, not a shoulder to cry

My heart still beats for the love

And my eyes cry for the lies

Waiting at the same corner of separation

I stand and wait for everything I had.

Knowing those questions don’t have any answer

Nor do I stand a chance of revival

But I will still stand and wait,

Wondering a reason not to be with.

Living it up, Sipping it down!

While I am writing this, I have earphones plugged into my ears and full volume music. No, I am not ignoring the world, I am just trying to shut myself into my world of thoughts and memories and some of the times I never got a chance to express myself about.

Something about me, I am a person who does not like bothering people unless its real necessary, I keep to myself as much as I can and also make sure I am not a pain in the ass for others. Now if you reading this, you have a question why is she like this? I just have one answer- I am being me!

I have not been keeping well for the last one week and I am still not in my best health conditions. Leaving apart the technical and medical terms, there was this one major thing that did not let me become well and that was those unanswered questions in my life. I was still trying to find the answers to those questions and find the reasons to behind every happening unless I fell asleep last night. And today morning when I woke up, I realised maybe I don’t need to find them and maybe they will find us. For everything there is a perfect time and for this also times will come when I will have my answers and reasons which I have been searching for. Till then go on with life as its going on and don’t try to be a detective.

I do cry a lot and to prove that point there wouldn’t be a lack of people to justify that. But I don’t regret crying because I know I am sensitive and it’s a part of my nature with which I was born in this world. Just because some people point their fingers and laugh at me or make this whole thing a nuisance saying I create scenes, I can’t change myself. Let them call me names and term me anything but I don’t care. People whom I really care about, what they think are perfectly fine with me crying and will always take me back no matter what. A good thing about crying, it does lighten my heart and I feel as if some strong weight is lifted from my heart. So the next time you are sad, and you want to shed a drop of tear, don’t hesitate and go ahead.

Sometimes all you require is that heart to heart conversation with that old pal of yours whom you forgot or did not get time in months to sit and talk about anything and everything. Personal experience, it makes you feel amazing and better than ever. Let it be over a coffee, or a lunch date or maybe just a simple conversation while walking- whatever it is, have one so that it makes you feel that after all you are not a bad friend and neither did you insult being a friend J After all what friends are for ;)

To keep yourself away from the bothering situations of life and wailing times, keep yourself busy with whatever you can. I have suffered and I know how terrible it is when you see all your close ones being close to other chaps and you stay behind like a loser and nothing to do. To ignore everything happening around that causes stress and tension, do something that brings a smile on your face and makes you happy for a change. My year started off at a bad note and has not been going on quite well- dealing with family tantrums, relationship issues, academic hassle and trying to figure out who really my friends are to be carried along the next four years. But, optimistic as I always have been, I am praying things are back on track with everything perfect as it was. I always believe in karma and hope. Karma is a bitch but to those who are not worth the smooth roads and to those who are worth the joyous rides of life, I am sure the good times are yet to come J. And as for hope, it’s a matter of survival in every situation. So live with the hope and walk ahead with it as it will never ever leave you.

Bored of what you are then give yourself a change. But careful don’t change because others want you to, bring a change in yourself if only you want it and only for good. Makeovers don’t only happen of your external appearance, a makeover of your internal personality is very important. Its always what we want to show people and not we are. So show the world what you are and prove their judgement of you wrong. Not every word of what you have been thought as is right, sometimes there’s this feeling which we get by proving people wrong and it feels so awesome. Don’t make others realise the importance of your presence, make them realise how their life would be by making them realise your absence. No, I am not giving you lectures on life and blah! I am just summarising on few of those feelings I went through in the past two weeks and how I have been dealing with it and I am not gonna be a loser ‘cause everyone was born to be a winner.

Go ahead, live your life the way you want to, but live it right and correct.

CHEERS TO LIFE!