While I am writing this, I have earphones plugged into my ears and full volume music. No, I am not ignoring the world, I am just trying to shut myself into my world of thoughts and memories and some of the times I never got a chance to express myself about.
Something about me, I am a person who does not like bothering people unless its real necessary, I keep to myself as much as I can and also make sure I am not a pain in the ass for others. Now if you reading this, you have a question why is she like this? I just have one answer- I am being me!
I have not been keeping well for the last one week and I am still not in my best health conditions. Leaving apart the technical and medical terms, there was this one major thing that did not let me become well and that was those unanswered questions in my life. I was still trying to find the answers to those questions and find the reasons to behind every happening unless I fell asleep last night. And today morning when I woke up, I realised maybe I don’t need to find them and maybe they will find us. For everything there is a perfect time and for this also times will come when I will have my answers and reasons which I have been searching for. Till then go on with life as its going on and don’t try to be a detective.
I do cry a lot and to prove that point there wouldn’t be a lack of people to justify that. But I don’t regret crying because I know I am sensitive and it’s a part of my nature with which I was born in this world. Just because some people point their fingers and laugh at me or make this whole thing a nuisance saying I create scenes, I can’t change myself. Let them call me names and term me anything but I don’t care. People whom I really care about, what they think are perfectly fine with me crying and will always take me back no matter what. A good thing about crying, it does lighten my heart and I feel as if some strong weight is lifted from my heart. So the next time you are sad, and you want to shed a drop of tear, don’t hesitate and go ahead.
Sometimes all you require is that heart to heart conversation with that old pal of yours whom you forgot or did not get time in months to sit and talk about anything and everything. Personal experience, it makes you feel amazing and better than ever. Let it be over a coffee, or a lunch date or maybe just a simple conversation while walking- whatever it is, have one so that it makes you feel that after all you are not a bad friend and neither did you insult being a friend J After all what friends are for ;)
To keep yourself away from the bothering situations of life and wailing times, keep yourself busy with whatever you can. I have suffered and I know how terrible it is when you see all your close ones being close to other chaps and you stay behind like a loser and nothing to do. To ignore everything happening around that causes stress and tension, do something that brings a smile on your face and makes you happy for a change. My year started off at a bad note and has not been going on quite well- dealing with family tantrums, relationship issues, academic hassle and trying to figure out who really my friends are to be carried along the next four years. But, optimistic as I always have been, I am praying things are back on track with everything perfect as it was. I always believe in karma and hope. Karma is a bitch but to those who are not worth the smooth roads and to those who are worth the joyous rides of life, I am sure the good times are yet to come J. And as for hope, it’s a matter of survival in every situation. So live with the hope and walk ahead with it as it will never ever leave you.
Bored of what you are then give yourself a change. But careful don’t change because others want you to, bring a change in yourself if only you want it and only for good. Makeovers don’t only happen of your external appearance, a makeover of your internal personality is very important. Its always what we want to show people and not we are. So show the world what you are and prove their judgement of you wrong. Not every word of what you have been thought as is right, sometimes there’s this feeling which we get by proving people wrong and it feels so awesome. Don’t make others realise the importance of your presence, make them realise how their life would be by making them realise your absence. No, I am not giving you lectures on life and blah! I am just summarising on few of those feelings I went through in the past two weeks and how I have been dealing with it and I am not gonna be a loser ‘cause everyone was born to be a winner.
Go ahead, live your life the way you want to, but live it right and correct.
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| CHEERS TO LIFE! |
