For the man I will always love !

For every daughter or son her/his dad is the best in the whole world and so is mine for me. Writing about him is probably the best thing i can ever write about. At times when you need that one pillar of support, one ray of hope and that one hand to hold during the black days, I look up to my father. There are some terrible mistakes that i have made and probably no one would ever forgive me for them, but he always did and took me back with his wide arms open. When everyone turns their back on me, he is the one who accepts me with all my flaws.

   There are countless memories with him and all of those fresh in my mind and heart because none of them are worth to be forgotten. I had my first ever drink with my dad not just for the sake of drinking but because he did not want to get embarrased later on if he came to know that i drank, but he can be proud that i had my first drink with him.

picture source : Amrath Sait

a friend's amazing photography caught this click and every time i see this picture i remember my beach days :) really the safest craddle is a father's arm !

A father is a very important existence in one's life and for me the most important. A friend with whom I can share all of what i have been through, all my success, my failures, humiliations and proud moments, a buddy, a mentor and a great father at the end of everything. And so today i am writing this 'cause i have nothing to give him for all what he did ever for me, thank you is nothing and gifts won''t reach all the way to the other continent :P plus it would be from his on credit card and that''s like he gifting himself something, not cool :P

So this is what I can do maximum to make him feel special on his special day. I have always been there on all your birthdays from the past 17 years and this one blame college and not me. But then even from miles away I am sure my best wishes, love and blessing will reach you no matter where your are. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

                                             

                          You are still young, don't mind me passing those " you have become old " comments, it's just me, and youth is a state of mind, you know it ;) you are the coolest dad i have seen and i am so lucky to have you. :D

My evergreen hero and my first love, yes you are :)

have a great birthday and don't miss me too much :*

limits and love

this one was long time back i had written but never really put it up :)


Endless and exclusive,
no rules,no limits and no bounds
thats how i learnt to love 
and will keep on loving.

Fearing none, caring least of the world,
I do not love to live rather i live to love
promised to be there till my last breathe
and after death my soul by your side

Had lost all hopes,to love and to be loved,
u guided me to a beginning with u
never expected you to happen
but now love the happening

Dedicating myself to you,denying rest's thoughts 
at the end of the day,all i know is i love you
its u who matters and not the world
'cause its u who taught me to love and be loved again

Taste of Life!

There are a hell lot of life changing moments that happen everyday and some are just way too prominent to always leave their footprints in our lives. Some with which we just have to walk with and some to leave behind. But the sad part is when you see something similar happening to a close one of yours through which we have already been through. Hurts to the core and brings back those moments which we never wanted to recall. About such situations what i learnt is to make the best effort to stop others to make the same mistakes which are responsible for a disturbed present which was once a pleasant past. No, i did not just mix up the words. It’s just how everything just falls into its place and some just don’t.

First of all to make sure we do not have that someday when we sit alone and at the back of our mind we regret some decisions. So please don’t make any decision in haste and give everything a time. Thinking too much is also a big danger for the decision. Sometimes we need to act selfless and think about the consequences that the people connected to our life would face after we decide for ourselves. I know we don’t have time to sit and ponder about every small thing but those small things build up to the big stories of our lives. I was asked how can I be so affected by two other people being separated and my answer was ‘cause I was in those shoes and walking in them is a task that is not easy. I am no guru to advice on life, love and decisions, but I am that one person who has tasted that bite of life, love and decisions and it was not a good experience over all. But again one should have the cook’s best and the worst make.

Every sculptor is not a perfectionist at his work but by every flaw he makes in one of his sculpture he makes sure not to repeat it. Not only that, he in fact learns from the flaws of others and makes none of those blunders. The same way as much as we learn from our own mistakes, we are supposed to learn more from other’s to make our self someone better. A friend of mine mentioned once that life would be boring if it was less complicated, and yes i would not agree less.

So if someone is responsible for that frown on your face, you be responsible for a smile on someone’s face. If life was the way we wanted it, it would have been less twisted and interesting. Not that it being all twisted is making everyday any easier. But it all comes with the package. Give everything a chance and what if it might just turn out to be what we craved for.

This piece i wrote not to send a message to all of you reading this but it was just an effort of me to let you all not face what I went through. A part of everything is good but not too much of it. Anyway readers, go back to what you were up to and once again do not think too much and just go with the flow but grip to the precious things in your life.

Cheers people!

Unfound reasons

                                                        

Sleepless nights pass by

With blank thoughts in my mind

Feeling nothing at all

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Alone and not a soul to comfort,

Emptiness is my new friend

Never leaves, never betrays

Never lies nor does hurt.

 

Clinging onto me and my all

Those memories have taken control

On my mind, heart and soul

And I unable to find an escape

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Not a hand to hold, not a shoulder to cry

My heart still beats for the love

And my eyes cry for the lies

Waiting at the same corner of separation

I stand and wait for everything I had.

Knowing those questions don’t have any answer

Nor do I stand a chance of revival

But I will still stand and wait,

Wondering a reason not to be with.

Living it up, Sipping it down!

While I am writing this, I have earphones plugged into my ears and full volume music. No, I am not ignoring the world, I am just trying to shut myself into my world of thoughts and memories and some of the times I never got a chance to express myself about.

Something about me, I am a person who does not like bothering people unless its real necessary, I keep to myself as much as I can and also make sure I am not a pain in the ass for others. Now if you reading this, you have a question why is she like this? I just have one answer- I am being me!

I have not been keeping well for the last one week and I am still not in my best health conditions. Leaving apart the technical and medical terms, there was this one major thing that did not let me become well and that was those unanswered questions in my life. I was still trying to find the answers to those questions and find the reasons to behind every happening unless I fell asleep last night. And today morning when I woke up, I realised maybe I don’t need to find them and maybe they will find us. For everything there is a perfect time and for this also times will come when I will have my answers and reasons which I have been searching for. Till then go on with life as its going on and don’t try to be a detective.

I do cry a lot and to prove that point there wouldn’t be a lack of people to justify that. But I don’t regret crying because I know I am sensitive and it’s a part of my nature with which I was born in this world. Just because some people point their fingers and laugh at me or make this whole thing a nuisance saying I create scenes, I can’t change myself. Let them call me names and term me anything but I don’t care. People whom I really care about, what they think are perfectly fine with me crying and will always take me back no matter what. A good thing about crying, it does lighten my heart and I feel as if some strong weight is lifted from my heart. So the next time you are sad, and you want to shed a drop of tear, don’t hesitate and go ahead.

Sometimes all you require is that heart to heart conversation with that old pal of yours whom you forgot or did not get time in months to sit and talk about anything and everything. Personal experience, it makes you feel amazing and better than ever. Let it be over a coffee, or a lunch date or maybe just a simple conversation while walking- whatever it is, have one so that it makes you feel that after all you are not a bad friend and neither did you insult being a friend J After all what friends are for ;)

To keep yourself away from the bothering situations of life and wailing times, keep yourself busy with whatever you can. I have suffered and I know how terrible it is when you see all your close ones being close to other chaps and you stay behind like a loser and nothing to do. To ignore everything happening around that causes stress and tension, do something that brings a smile on your face and makes you happy for a change. My year started off at a bad note and has not been going on quite well- dealing with family tantrums, relationship issues, academic hassle and trying to figure out who really my friends are to be carried along the next four years. But, optimistic as I always have been, I am praying things are back on track with everything perfect as it was. I always believe in karma and hope. Karma is a bitch but to those who are not worth the smooth roads and to those who are worth the joyous rides of life, I am sure the good times are yet to come J. And as for hope, it’s a matter of survival in every situation. So live with the hope and walk ahead with it as it will never ever leave you.

Bored of what you are then give yourself a change. But careful don’t change because others want you to, bring a change in yourself if only you want it and only for good. Makeovers don’t only happen of your external appearance, a makeover of your internal personality is very important. Its always what we want to show people and not we are. So show the world what you are and prove their judgement of you wrong. Not every word of what you have been thought as is right, sometimes there’s this feeling which we get by proving people wrong and it feels so awesome. Don’t make others realise the importance of your presence, make them realise how their life would be by making them realise your absence. No, I am not giving you lectures on life and blah! I am just summarising on few of those feelings I went through in the past two weeks and how I have been dealing with it and I am not gonna be a loser ‘cause everyone was born to be a winner.

Go ahead, live your life the way you want to, but live it right and correct.

CHEERS TO LIFE!

Dark Path

Walking on the dark path,
with no hint of a light beam
I go ahead in my journey,
to live some dreams of mine and some of others.

Evil is surrounding,
Love is abandoning,
with no choice to turn back,
I keep walking on the dark path.

Lost, alone, clueless and confused,
stuck at the thoughts of you forever,
in search of some streak of hope,
I keep walking o the dark path.

No needs, no wants, no regrets, no grievances,
a glimpse of your face, a whisper of your voice
is all that I long for and live this life, as
I keep walking on the dark path.

A thought of spending New Years

The year 2011 was quite an eventful one and many of you reading this wouldn't agree to it less. For some of us who gave boards, results tension, college admissions and confusions and exams tensions :P But then yet again everything happens for a reason. We all  lived some moments, committed mistakes and learnt lessons, and yet again all these are different chapters of a book called Life :)

New years is all about doing something new, something we have never done and something we always left for the last. This year take resoultions that you will actually follow and not just laugh about later saying just for the sake of taking :P I still remember last year when I decided I will be full on sincere towards everything I do in life but that i wasn't honestly. So let's see things we should do this new year and try our hundred percent to follow them ;)

Make some new friends and give your old friends a call and make them realise you still remember them :) and facebook is anyway there. Scroll through your friend list and look at those names which once were a regular name in your call list and inbox :D

and if that also doesn't refresh your memory then why not take a look at the grade ten and grade twelve farewell pictures and laugh and smile at those moments which were such a big deal once upon a time and now they just mean some good old times :) send them a text and give your old friends a surprise and enemies a shock :P ;)

Do something new, crazy and innovative :) It's I know not possible for many but try making somethings possible ;) Give a try with colours and paint your thoughts, pick up a pen and write some words you always have wanted to express but never could, put on your dancing shoes and dance to some radio tunes or grab your mp3 or i-pod player, close your room doors and dance at full volume. Feel free and enjoy what life has in store for you and not cry upon things that happened and cannot be changed.

All our times we want to party and spend with our friends but why not for a change spend few days with those people who are behind you what you are now. Few hours spending with them though might not make you that much happy and sufficed but it will surely bring a smile on their faces and sometimes giving happiness to others is a lot! :D The ones who already spend enough time with your parents, awesome you all are and some who are still thinking, how about spend some few minutes sitting wit your mom or dad and talk about your day, your next day plans or how about include them in your plans ;) i am sure they would love to join you and your fun :) and as about me you would be thinking do I? Yes, I do include them in my plans :)






Oh that reminds me, not to forget your grandparents. Some are lucky to have grandparents and spend time with them and some like me a little unlucky on that part :( obviously you can't include them in your plans but you can make plans with them :D Grab a tea or a coffee and talk some of their old times and some of your new times.

                                             
I know, I know..who am I to advise you on what to do on new years,but hey who is advising you. I am just giving my opinion of spending a new years a way which many of you might have already spent it or many of you would like to. As it is, this year 2012 is all hyped up with movies and books already out before it arrived :P and never the less people found ways in that also to earn their own profits! can't blame it coz it's human nature ;)

For those who still have a hope that 2012 this world might end, get over it people we won't end so easily. After all God has bigger plans for all of us and I am sure they are going to be a surprise. 2012 is indeed going to be very interesting for each of us and yes, in a short conversation with a dear friend of mine, she told me why do I feel this coming year is going to be an awesome and happy one and being an optimist  I couldn't agree to it less.




So let me wrap this up and leave all you readers with a pleasant thought of falling in love, making new friends and doing some good to people and giving life another chance.

A Happy New Year and have a great year ahead.
cheers!