Be the kid again!

Was wondering what to write on and couldn’t think of it since days :/ okay I was obviously busy enjoying the perks of summer vacations :D after all, this is the only time I get mom’s food and all the pampering and you see all of us don’t reside at nearby cities to VIT(yeah, that’s where I am gonna rot the next 3 years). Some lucky chaps run off to their home at Chennai or Bangalore (I still prefer calling this rather than bengaluru) every chance they get. Anyway, we do somehow manage to have fun our own ways by not coming back to where we belong. Now as I thought of what to write, I almost covered a lot of things I usually go through or I think about or whatever…so this time I randomly came up with something to write , no nothing about the presidential elections or the Indian economy downfall…too boring for me to write and you to read and neither am I writing about Euro2012, you see I have football knowledge almost equal to zero(yes I agree) and those occasional times I watch them because of the hot players :P

It’s freaking hot in India and I am glad I am not there to suffer it all B) and for all of you there,I feel bad, survive the heat! I am sitting in Lagos(for all those of you reading this don’t know what lagos is, google it;)!) thank God! *phew* Summer vacations is one LONG,BIG break from your regular life. Now if you are thinking I am going to write some essay on summer vacations, I am not. For me summer vacations from childhood were always a trip to somewhere. I have travelled a lot since my childhood. Every summers was a chance for me to explore new places and I used to wait for the month of may because I knew my mom was going to pack bags and my dad was looking for places to go :D I have almost covered the entire 26 states of India, except for a few of them, fell short of school years L There was this one summer where I went to the north covering nainital, mussorie and further higher to Badrinath, snow in summer a bliss I tell youJ And every time I got to spend my birthday at different places :P explains my inconsistency. My 18^th I spent in Mauritius paragliding, now that’s more cool than to get drunk :D

yeah, that is some weird expression i am making there!

Though not my favourite season but it has still been a great one whenever I had plans for vacations. This summer I turned 19, no vacations and just looking through old albums where it was different me. Childhood is one of the best period of one’s life. How much ever you were beaten up for those naughtiness, how much ever you were scolded for your low marks(some of us are still screwed for it:P), how much ever you were told not to do this and that, but that was one hell of a freedom we had got. Freedom at its height I would say… College is no doubt fun but not more fun than running towards the swings and flying high with them, seemed as if we were on the top of the world, those times when friendship was just about being the best of friends, times when getting a chocolate for something was considered the greatest reward, times when the only relationships we knew about was with our family…those times are never going to come back. We find kids and their stupid activities annoying, but maybe you were one of those annoying kid. I miss being that free, I miss those times when all mistakes I did were forgotten saying , “ leave it, she is just a kid!” An anonymous saying, "today is the oldest you have ever been and the youngest you will ever be", true words!

But after all these years, there is still a small kid within us who just wants to run wild in the free without any boundaries. I know a friend of mine who is elder to me by few years in age but is such a kid and throws all kind of tantrums when it comes to fulfilling demands :P its said, youth is a state of mind. Be young at heart, and world will be much simpler than what it is. So unleash the child within you this summer and do something you last stopped when you were a child with no responsibilities.

Go ahead, open the fridge and grab some chocolates, eat as much ice-cream you want, go as wild as you can(now many of you, not going wild that way :P don't read between the lines XD) live life as you used to, and enjoy your summers like you never did before.

Cheers :D

Her endless journey

As dark as the storm clouds,

Blur like those foggy days,

Weak roots lie beneath the tree of life

Holding onto nothing would be precise.

Pulled by the evil forces behind,

As she tried taking a step in the journey unknown

Fell weak on her knees and looked up to faith.

She held in herself for ages, the agony and pain,

she mustered the courage to master the force,

For the justice she was never given,

For the revenge she never thought of taking.

She walked ahead without a direction,

But a destination clear as crystal.

She climbed upon life,

grabbing each branch as a hope,

rotten fruits all it gave but,

the seeds were her soul.

Never will she give up, till she found

The reason behind her misery.

Grabbing some bites of love and sips of joy,

Still searching and walking the endless journey.

mistakes: made any?

It's all about time and what is new one second, becomes old and forgotten the next second. We all have a journey to complete ahead in our life with uncountable milestones and numerous obstacles... out of the topic a bit, but this line reminds me of takeshi's castle :P damn i miss that show! anyway coming back on track, a journey on which we set upon to give our self a motive to live and define our ways. The morning everyday brings with it new surprises, a package of hopes and beliefs. I too wake up everyday thinking, what if today turns out to be that extra-ordinary day where i don't commit a single mistake and set ahead my footsteps for the rest of the day..but that never happens :P i have to make at least one mistake through out the day. But then flaws makes one awesome B)



Thinking of the past, there are huge blunders i have made and coming to think of it now, maybe I wasn't given a good set of choices or maybe i was too bad at the whole decision making process.

1. First mistake, I made few pathetic people my "so called friends". Oh yeah, they deserve the word pathetic and i would love to cross the line to define them with some of the most absurd adjectives in the dictionary but why waste time, energy and words :P all of them are precious :D Actually thanks to them that now i have such a great set of friends. What i learnt from this was that, do NOT trust one much unless you feel fully comfortable. Friends reminds me, how much i enjoyed that series so far, it's one of the most hilarious and fun show i have seen...any of you reading this who had not seen friends must see it ASAP..

2. Whoever said love is beautiful forgot its a joint account with something called  a "relationship" which has it's own terms and conditions and also some hidden issues. Wake up people, life is not a fairy tale and there is no one perfect for us. I have been in quite a few relationships and as per my personal experience, i would say it's a waste of time and emotions. Every time I decided not to let the seriousness factor get in between, it somehow did and i miserably failed. Soft hearts like me have to go through some tagged dialogues like "it was nothing great, move on!" or "oh! get over it, there are a lot of fish in the ocean." Saying is hell easy, come and do it bitches, you will feel it then. Lol! i can  actually do an entire thesis on relationships but too boring it would be. And so if you suck at the whole relationship stuff, how about trying something called "flirtationship", no term and conditions, not at all exclusive and you can have all the fish in the ocean. ;)

3. Ah! This mistake I am sure i have a lot of people with me :D Has there been times when you started with something with full enthusiasm and left it incomplete 'cause it was uninteresting and boring. I have done that a  millions of times and i am not proud of it at all. Quite regretful I would say. There comes times till date in my life where i go like "only if i had done that" :| Trust me it's a terrible feeling and something literally eats me up inside. So if possible, try completing the under construction work and start some men at work sites.





Spoke about mistakes enough eh, i know no one likes to hear about mistakes and regret about it. But this not any shitty piece of advice, its something where while reading you would find your own mistakes in mine and the rest who didn't can enjoy their ice-scream without a spill.

And when you tired of making mistakes, why not escape to a new place where no one cares and no one gives a damn about what you do. Where it's all about you and your dreams and how you chase it...

mumbai : the city of dreams!

Have an amazing summer, make it your own way, make some mistakes and rectify few of them. After its summer, a little controversial and interesting it has to be, otherwise the charm of summer gets lost  and you lose all the fun.





Go ahead make some new friends, do some new stuff, grab a beer and chill out \m/

cheers!

The drama, the gossip and the limelight..

Past five months have been the worst of my life so far. So much happened in so little time and the drama, yes that is more spicier than the ones running on television.... Here in my college I bet people never run out of topics to talk 'cause they get all the gossip they want to. Gossip reminds me, a very close of friend of mine who LOVES to gossip and for his this habit I call him gay :P Boys don't be surprised please. The favourite topic of discussion shifts from soccer and cricket to "what's the relationship status of that hot chick" and "what's the scene between the couple boss?" talks. And nothing surprising also and neither am I denying that we girls don't but we atleast accept the fact :P

 Recently in a regular conversation, some one mentioned how we all are no less than 90210...and later i thought about it and laughed and he was so damn right...No one likes being in the limelight for the bad, and no one likes to be stared at when walking around either but when you know what's the truth and how you are, walk with your head high plus ignorance is bliss. Not to forget more the people you know, more you will be talked about.




When the fire is ready to be lit, a lot of hands with the fuel come forward but none raise their hands to stop the fire. I don't  blame those individuals who love talking about people behind the back and gossip and bitch around about them because this place does not leave one with any option better than that. I am not saying that I don't gossip but yes i don't instigate a rumour nor do I give one a lift by confirming it. Some in this process do not realize that the other person might just lose all the respect he or she ever held around people. Whatever one might say, but i would always say do not just judge the book by it's cover, you never know what's the story inside. I know most of you who are reading this by now must have guessed the stories,situation and the characters. But then, me and all of us learnt a lesson and will never forget it. Whatever the circumstance is, some turn out to be the victim and some are guilty.

A mindset is something that doesn't take much time to change. If you were known for the good and now you are known for the bad then rectify your mistakes and make them realize that a few actions cannot change who you are and what will you always be. Obstacles a part of the game of life and all of them can be crossed with the help of some dedication and confidence. I have always been there for my friends and situations were such that i had to choose my friend over the right, but then i faced the storm with them and sailed with them on the rough sea knowing that it might take forever to witness the clear sky.

Every gossip and rumour fades away with time, and so does bad times of life. Ups and downs are an important ingredient in the recipe of "how to survive life"! So go ahead and live the world however you want to, because at the end of the day people who love you will be there to welcome you back with their open arms and walk with you the rest of the journey. And if that doesn't help  :p sometimes revenge is a dish best served cold for whatever disaster ever happened with you! ;) :P

cheers !

For the man I will always love !

For every daughter or son her/his dad is the best in the whole world and so is mine for me. Writing about him is probably the best thing i can ever write about. At times when you need that one pillar of support, one ray of hope and that one hand to hold during the black days, I look up to my father. There are some terrible mistakes that i have made and probably no one would ever forgive me for them, but he always did and took me back with his wide arms open. When everyone turns their back on me, he is the one who accepts me with all my flaws.

   There are countless memories with him and all of those fresh in my mind and heart because none of them are worth to be forgotten. I had my first ever drink with my dad not just for the sake of drinking but because he did not want to get embarrased later on if he came to know that i drank, but he can be proud that i had my first drink with him.

picture source : Amrath Sait

a friend's amazing photography caught this click and every time i see this picture i remember my beach days :) really the safest craddle is a father's arm !

A father is a very important existence in one's life and for me the most important. A friend with whom I can share all of what i have been through, all my success, my failures, humiliations and proud moments, a buddy, a mentor and a great father at the end of everything. And so today i am writing this 'cause i have nothing to give him for all what he did ever for me, thank you is nothing and gifts won''t reach all the way to the other continent :P plus it would be from his on credit card and that''s like he gifting himself something, not cool :P

So this is what I can do maximum to make him feel special on his special day. I have always been there on all your birthdays from the past 17 years and this one blame college and not me. But then even from miles away I am sure my best wishes, love and blessing will reach you no matter where your are. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

                                             

                          You are still young, don't mind me passing those " you have become old " comments, it's just me, and youth is a state of mind, you know it ;) you are the coolest dad i have seen and i am so lucky to have you. :D

My evergreen hero and my first love, yes you are :)

have a great birthday and don't miss me too much :*

limits and love

this one was long time back i had written but never really put it up :)


Endless and exclusive,
no rules,no limits and no bounds
thats how i learnt to love 
and will keep on loving.

Fearing none, caring least of the world,
I do not love to live rather i live to love
promised to be there till my last breathe
and after death my soul by your side

Had lost all hopes,to love and to be loved,
u guided me to a beginning with u
never expected you to happen
but now love the happening

Dedicating myself to you,denying rest's thoughts 
at the end of the day,all i know is i love you
its u who matters and not the world
'cause its u who taught me to love and be loved again

Taste of Life!

There are a hell lot of life changing moments that happen everyday and some are just way too prominent to always leave their footprints in our lives. Some with which we just have to walk with and some to leave behind. But the sad part is when you see something similar happening to a close one of yours through which we have already been through. Hurts to the core and brings back those moments which we never wanted to recall. About such situations what i learnt is to make the best effort to stop others to make the same mistakes which are responsible for a disturbed present which was once a pleasant past. No, i did not just mix up the words. It’s just how everything just falls into its place and some just don’t.

First of all to make sure we do not have that someday when we sit alone and at the back of our mind we regret some decisions. So please don’t make any decision in haste and give everything a time. Thinking too much is also a big danger for the decision. Sometimes we need to act selfless and think about the consequences that the people connected to our life would face after we decide for ourselves. I know we don’t have time to sit and ponder about every small thing but those small things build up to the big stories of our lives. I was asked how can I be so affected by two other people being separated and my answer was ‘cause I was in those shoes and walking in them is a task that is not easy. I am no guru to advice on life, love and decisions, but I am that one person who has tasted that bite of life, love and decisions and it was not a good experience over all. But again one should have the cook’s best and the worst make.

Every sculptor is not a perfectionist at his work but by every flaw he makes in one of his sculpture he makes sure not to repeat it. Not only that, he in fact learns from the flaws of others and makes none of those blunders. The same way as much as we learn from our own mistakes, we are supposed to learn more from other’s to make our self someone better. A friend of mine mentioned once that life would be boring if it was less complicated, and yes i would not agree less.

So if someone is responsible for that frown on your face, you be responsible for a smile on someone’s face. If life was the way we wanted it, it would have been less twisted and interesting. Not that it being all twisted is making everyday any easier. But it all comes with the package. Give everything a chance and what if it might just turn out to be what we craved for.

This piece i wrote not to send a message to all of you reading this but it was just an effort of me to let you all not face what I went through. A part of everything is good but not too much of it. Anyway readers, go back to what you were up to and once again do not think too much and just go with the flow but grip to the precious things in your life.

Cheers people!