Change is the Only Constant thing.

Have you heard people ranting and whining about how everything has changed around them? how times have changed and how people have changed? well that happens on a very frequent basis. thus my title is justified. Change is actually the only constant thing in the world.

But when will the change in humanity come. In fact let me frame it this way, when will we stop speaking and do something? When will we stop questioning and start coming up with solutions? Well it is never too late for anything.
 Given the circumstances, everyday we do read in the newspaper or hear in the news about some rape or molestation or any other sexual abuse and what do we do about that? we feel bad for a fraction of second, maybe even have an hour long discussion on it with someone or the other or even share the news on facebook and caption it as "what a shame!". But that is all. When i read posts across twitter and facebook on how rapists in other countries are not given even a second thought, forget second chances, i wonder why is  it only in our country that a juvenile escapes punishment because he is too young to be punished but on the ironical path, he can go and rape a woman without any mind. I mean, equality stands in our rights, so let it be equal. According to me, all rapists should be hung when caught. well i am calling them by that term because they are worse than criminals, criminals repent, they don't know mercy so repentance is out of their dictionary.

I may sound like some amateur talking about making laws and bringing a change. Something I will agree and not be a hypocrite about, I do not have that much capabilities to make the change but if i can be a part of it, I will not back out. The change needs to happen, the revolution needs to occur, the justice needs to be given. Let us stand up for the women who can't raise their voice, but we can. We can let the world know that our country does give justice to women and this can only be possible if we bend the laws, script the new law of punishing the ones who made the women suffer.

The spark is within us, all we need to do is make it a fire, big enough to spread the word and not let any more of us suffer. We shall let those individuals know that harassing women, molesting them and not letting them live a life can take their lives away for ever.

Dry and Faded.

It is very easy to let it all out and just keep crying, whining and cribbing about something. But when it comes to some emotions which you know there is no use even if you let it all out. It just gets accumulated within and you become so closed to it that you don’t know what any of the feelings feel like. May be once in a while you might sit in some corner and cry out , tears trickling down your eyes, and quickly rub it all off when you know someone around you is watching you. This exactly how you become with all emotions. People who have had all the happiness in life and suddenly have everything taken away from them and left with nothing, they become very careful about the little bit of happiness they gain from anything. These kind of people loose attachment from everything and anything. They no longer know the feeling of seeing someone after so long or being at home after months or even the feeling of waiting for someone. I feel sad for such people. They used to be maybe a person of out bursting emotions and finding happiness in little things. Now it is all about straight faces, stagnant emotions and dry tears. Nothing can ever make them happy except for what they have lost on the way. The fear of losing everything is the greatest fear in the world. They don’t expect anything from anyone anymore.

The funny part being, people around this particular person will feel as if everything is all right and nothing was ever wrong. But little do they know that behind every smile and laughter there is a shallow side. If they hurt someone intentionally or even unintentionally, they won’t feel the slightest tinge of regret or guilt or will even have the urge to apologize. And that is exactly how people will start drifting from the individual. Such people like being alone rather than being lonely. They believe in just themselves and nothing else. They have got no strings attached and have completely rigged of every wire of connection they ever had with any kind of emotion.

So if you ever happen to feel you have such people around you, don’t sympathize with them nor should you expect any sympathies out of them- Because they are probably stuck at a point of time of their life which they haven’t yet gotten over. Give them their space and time. someday time will heal them, and someday they will heal the time.

Love never dies, it just gets lost!

It is at the end of the day all about emotions and feelings. Love is peculiar in its own way. It makes some people strong and some people weak. For me it does the work for both. I have learnt over the years that love is not something that you give up on so easily. It requires patience, understanding and most of all trust. Deep thoughts and blurting out emotions are not going to be the only thing I am going to talk about here.

 Maturing over the years, understanding what exactly it is to be in love or rather falling in love. It is not some kind of obsession or infatuation. It is just a simple feeling where you know that there is that one person whom you want to celebrate your success with and cry to when something bad hits. Love defines a relationship. Building it on that one sole factor- If that’s not there then there is no point of calling it a relationship. Well I am very much in love and there is nothing bad in it. I love the idea of being in love. Makes you smile every now and then when you think about that person or just makes you go all romantic and makes you do all kind of gestures to show the love. The person I love is far away from me but that doesn’t make my love stop from growing.

“We have been through the best and the worst, through laughter and cry, through summers and winters, but never let that shake the foundation.”

 Believing in love is more important than anything else. I believe everything has its crests and troughs. Living in the present is equally important because we never know what is in store for us in the next moment. Being together is not what defines love. Love is defined by being happy in your beloved’s happiness. Love is selfless and it doesn’t demand or deceive, neither does it die or disappear. It just gets lost among the rest of the elements of emotions. It is time’s one way of indicating that life is hard and we need to find our way out of it.

So next time you feel love is bullshit and there is no point of being in love, think over it and find that one reason that had kept you till now in that pit of love. If you still do not find that reason then it’s better to come out of it rather than die in it.

To Him,

We’ve grown together in so many ways. I’ve learnt so many things from you and I hope you’ve learned from me too. I’ve tried, you’ve tried. I’ve sulked, you’ve sulked. We both agreed, disagreed, stormed and relented. We have made some of the best decisions and made few blunders too. It’s been an ongoing process of adapting, understanding, accepting, caring and loving. But at the end of all this, we have been together. You were there throughout everything I have ever been through. And if you haven’t been there then I blame time and not you. Life always doesn’t work in our favor. And sometimes it didn’t work out for us. But one thing that was there all this while was us. 

We’ve traveled quite a distance together and there’s still a long way to go. Everyday there is something new to face with a new dawn. Distance in kilometers is never the barrier, in fact distance in the relationship is. No matter how far two people are from each other, if trust and love exists, the kilometers milestone doesn't stand a chance to destroy anything.

From Her.

Prioritize the right

What are priorities?

“It’s not enough to be busy; so are the ants. The question is: what are we busy about?”

~Henry David Thoreau

I am a third year college student pursuing my engineering degree and every day I am piled up with endless number of assignments. I never seem to reach the end of the pile and can never take a sigh of relief. But in spite of how much ever busy I get, I don’t forget to give a call to my mom, now the duration is sometimes a 5 second one or a five minutes. It doesn’t matter how long it is, it’s what you do. Things which matter the most should never be at the mercy of the least.

So again I come to the same question, what are priorities? Well, in simple words, priority is just the expression of importance through actions and not just through thoughts. Honestly we are never too busy for anything or anyone whom we love. I love writing and I look for the smallest escape from my packed routine to write few words, pen down some thoughts and feel happy. I have seen my father put family before his work sometimes just to see us jolly. So yes, you have never enough reasons to say no to yourself from doing something you love.

The major problem we all have is that we prioritize things that are urgent the most and not enough on the things that are important and will last through forever. There are a lot of factors that shape our priorities in our daily lives. It is what we put at stake and what we leave behind.

Talking about priorities, while I am writing this, I have a lab record to complete and two assignments due and they are kept right in front of me haunting me but I chose to write because this is what I love and this is what will keep me happy. Those assignments can wait and well I can spend an extra few hours on them but this is like something which I want to do, so I am doing it. My very close friend has her birthday right in the middle of our semester finals but we somehow manage to take out few hours to make it special and a happy day for her because that’s kind of our priority at that point.

the friend i was talking about :P

So next time you feel you are doing everything right, look back at the timeline and see the things you have missed and the times you have disappointed people. Give your loved ones sixty seconds calls or give yourself the pleasure of the time to spend on what you love. Go take a trip to the bookstore or sit by the beach reminiscing memories or maybe surprise the people who have been waiting for you since forever. 

Journeys on the page.

Journeys are some hell of a life changer. I mean sometimes you just look out of the window and think about good times, bad times, decisions you have made before and how it has affected you and etc. well those thoughts are necessary once in a while. I love traveling alone, it’s like you don’t have to bother about who is going ahead of you or worry about if someone is left behind. Feels good to be alone and stress free. Recently I was travelling from Chennai to vellore, though just a 2 hour journey but one hell of a journey. Endless roads and strangers around, I didn't want the journey to end. Though there were the minus points of the uncomfortable seats and some perverted assholes but I really can’t help us situations. How do I deal with if you ask, I ignore and get lost in my thoughts to where I paused.

haze through the raindrops

I have always been a traveler. My father is in sales and he well keeps getting posted at different places. Every time he would be assigned a new city, I would also have to move along because I had no other choice. I have friends literally everywhere possible. I mean the number of school I have changed and the number of people I have known just go countless. And I would never hesitate to the shifting part because every time it was like a new adventure and I have no clue what’s next. There have been times where I have rejoined a school after a period of three years and it felt so good to reunite with those people whom I thought I would never meet them ever. This flame of hope in me never dies. I did most of my schooling in Notre Dame Academy, Patna and I am glad I did because what I am today, there is that school, the friends, my teachers who have given me chances to become the perfect person.

Something I have realized and maybe all of you would have by now, every person whom you have met throughout your life till date, have been responsible for the kind of person you are today. All these from a journey, you must be wondering how? Because it’s a very clichéd life-quote about how life an endless journey and we make our own destinations. And that’s true to every bit. A lot of my acquaintances have concluded that this female is too much of philosophy. I won’t say anything to that because it’s their opinion and I am no one to say anything to that.

I have always found happiness in the tiniest of things. When I was young, say 6 or 7, I loved train journeys for a reason that I get the window seat and I can look outside and make up stories in my mind and look through the plush green fields, those dry rivers and the high bridges making me feel good. Every time it was new and different. I love traveling in trains now too and my reasons haven’t changed. These journeys somehow give me that time which I need, away from everything and everyone. If you are laughing no one to bother you asking why you laughing aimlessly or even if tears are trickling down your cheeks, there is no one to ask you what happened and why are you crying. That’s something you need sometimes. Let it go and you will feel better, because no one wants to know the reason behind your every activity. 

Well journeys are always a good experience for me till the time it's just me. Not that i mind company but then again priority is always alone. Next time you go somewhere, traveling to some place, try letting everything go and don't give a shit about anything. 

Tweet, retweet or favorite yet?

It’s exam time yet again, so what? I should be surrounded with books and notes around me and with my glasses on I should be struggling to get things into my head and try to finish the portion, but here I am writing a blog post. This because, I deserve it! Now there is no TV around me that I go relax on the couch and shuffle through the channels, so I have my laptop and my blog to cheer me up in the times of such distress. Oh, how much I miss home, how every time I would be tired of the book in front of me, I would just casually walk towards the kitchen, open the refrigerator door and glance through the items in it and then close it and do absolutely nothing. And I know it’s not just me who does this, everyone of you has done it once at least.. And when I find nothing, time for the ultimate rescue, Mom! Drag her all the way to the kitchen to make me something delicious and more interesting than those stacks of books to which I have to return to. Damn, I miss those times.

Sometimes I just wonder, why does everything have its different sets of pros and cons? So since there is no mom and no kitchen and no TV, I rely on twitter for a change in the monotonous mood. Twitter is just like that live newspaper where it’s not just about the serious plots and issues, it’s also about how people have the talent to find humor in everything possible on earth. And FYI, hash-tags are just meant for twitter, so If you trying to be cool on facebook using a hash-tag, I term you as not so cool! 

After I joined twitter, actually let me be precise, after I became completely active on twitter I realized there are not just stereotyped two kinds of people in this world, there are more than you can think of. The grammar Nazis are the best ones, they just cannot tolerate even a single mistake in English language. It’s like their job till death to bring perfection in English language. Then there are those who can make you definitely smile or even laugh at their tweets, it’s an incredible talent I feel. To make someone cry is nothing but make someone laugh is an art. Then there are those who just have to make you feel their presence by cracking their ridiculously so called lame jokes. They assume it to be funny themselves but then yet again, let the truth be hidden.

Some of my friends twitter complicated, but I say it’s hell easier than facebook. Twitter is fast, simple and to the point. The 140 character limit per tweet is one of the plus points, stops you from yapping too much. You might even find people matching your wavelength and you will turn out be great twitter pals once you click with them. Post joining twitter, you might find the celeb accounts. Follow them if you really want to stay put with their regular life. Also, I have got half of my Vodafone problems solved through twitter, believe it or not! They are fast and reply to you immediately. And last but not the least, there are the universal creeps who have hijacked every social networking site with their gay, “hi”, “hello”, “follow me”, blah blah crap. They are hell bored in life I assume. Now comes the best part of this site, the handle. Unique handles are something that is an attention seeker. I have so many which I love. If you are on twitter, follow them, they are my favorites:

https://twitter.com/Mumbaifreak

https://twitter.com/scaryhairyman

https://twitter.com/floydbhakt

https://twitter.com/MayContainPuns

https://twitter.com/ShadyPisces

https://twitter.com/The_Reaper_Eve

https://twitter.com/Sir_Serpents

https://twitter.com/AapChutiyeHain

Trust me you will have an insane time. Your timeline will be kickass and you will never get bored if you are in a lecture, meeting or in a journey. So what you waiting for, join twitter and leave liking, commenting behind. It’s time for some retweets, favorites and following! 

Oh yeah, follow me too, https://twitter.com/TheBongHandle :P <-- publicity

Now I will be back to my monotonously boring textbooks. L oh how much I hate exams! 

About something and everything

Writing is not just being always being perfect, you should write when you want to let your heart out. That's why people maintain journals and diaries and also regular blogs. I am glad i am into something like this because if you don't have the stage to yourself then you have the pen.Let the ink start flowing and beauty is on its way fellows. I don't get to do my favorite thing now a days because of my hectic and monotonous college life. Exams, assignments,projects and reviews are draining me out completely and keeping me away from my favorites....

Writing often makes you more open about yourself and easier to express. I love writing because of this bloody reason. I write about anything on my mind. It's like painting my thoughts on a paper with ink. My few close ones are also into writing and they are brilliant in their own ways. Everyone has a different style of doing things, it might bring an applause or a criticism. And if writers write about something in their subsequent publishing, they are stereotyped. But little do we know that there is always an undiscovered side of every one which has the capability to do wonders. 

With the change in times i am glad, English is being saved from murder. If you would have noticed, people have started to come back to taking the time and patience to use complete words and punctuation in their texts, emails and comments. I am glad i don't see the often use of the absurd abbreviations and short forms,not that i never used it but hey everyone has that period of time where you follow the trend and so did i. Hey but all the twitter users are legally permitted by the grammar Nazis because of the 140 character limit. Twitter reminds me, it's a lot more interesting than facebook. You would get rid of those annoying app requests, weird shares and the rest of your individual facebook woes.

On the other hand twitter is the place where you read awesome tweets and in facebook language you can update your status as frequently you want to without having the fear of being judged and being questioned. So go ahead, get started on some tweeting. And if you tweet something sentimental and emotional, you are the emo, forever alone who is on twitter more than other places...But emotions and love have no definition, its underrated for some because it is packaged with its own kicks sometimes causing people trouble in paradise and sometimes a road to the dream world. And for the rest its overrated, they say its too vague to get serious about...For some love is like the fading colors and for some its the permanent ink stain...

I have been taught to experiment everything in life, so that later i don't get a chance to regret about not trying and letting myself out in the world to live it. It's up to us to what we get addicted to. The pit is right in front of us, if you are the foolish one you would walk straight into it without any second thoughts but the clever one will think and find a way out to cross it without being in it. You must be wondering what is my post actually on, to be honest its on nothing particular..I wanted to write everything that's on my mind pretty much and well it's out here.My mind everyday is like that busy housewife who has to do every chore of the house regardless of anything she wants to do for herself...Everyday when i wake up, its not like those TV commercials or movies in which they show the bright sunshine and the arm stretch, but mine starts with the "oh crap, i have so much work today" expression. Living life is not easy but then again we need to find our own way into the paradise and keep the trouble out of it.Life shoots the truth sometimes like a bullet shot underwater, you will feel the pain but no one ever knows about it. Funny but true at the set of the sun. 


Learn from your everyday, live life everyday, love the beloveds enough, punch the suckers who are a torture and appreciate the ones that tolerate you, odds might be that you just might be lucky..If nothing reaches to better, bring the better closer...no now don't troll on that line. Complications are something we create and simplicity we destroy. If today wasn't a good day, tomorrow or maybe day after might be...

but the good day will come for sure and the smile on your face will please everyone including you. Look at the deviation, i started with how much i love writing and ended writing a crappy and useless but i think a bit useful piece. Add some colors to your life and throw away the black stuff from it..write, play, enjoy and dream. Oh, by the way someone always corrects me whenever i say black is a color and according to that someone black is the absence of color and after so many corrections i have accepted it completely though it's still my favorite whatever.

Think before you say, and think before you write?

Back to writing what I love and not what i am forced to. Oh yeah, i was busy writing my semester finals and now that they are over, its such a relief. But I guess those good times are gone when we could write whatever we want to openly allowed by our own constitution that gives us the freedom of speech but then again the Government of India doesn't seem to be happy with it. Just imagine yourself in the place of those two innocent girls, you update a status on facebook and then suddenly someone knocks at your door after an hour or so, and all you see after opening the door is a policeman with handcuffs to arrest you. ..creepy right? Burning down houses, hoardings, creating chaos, causing unwanted disturbance in the city's functioning is very ethically correct but if I update a status saying that I don't think a bandh is necessary then that's wrong and totally not justified...But then what we can do is again nothing. 

Anyway so this is what is going on in the country and some of them are busy discussing that Sachin Tendulkar should retire just because he didn't score in the last few matches regardless of the fact that he got those numerous trophies, victories, and fame to our country and the rest just are happy with their own life. 

As for me I just got done with exams and i missed writing. In my last post i conveyed my concern for books that are now a days sold in the market and i got quite a positive response for that because a lot of them actually take my side on it. Anyway so its December again, vacations, festivals, some spending and some partying and some are actually busy cutting cakes because they believe world is gonna come to an end and they never gonna meet each other...its hilarious but then some do find it cute. But do YOU believe that so easily the world is gonna come to an end? I am not challenging science here, but if i wanna believe everything is gonna get over in a matter of few days, I will regret of so much things i haven't yet done. Its funny how people actually are coming up with new stories everyday about why there is a possibility that the world is not gonna exist anymore... some say since all the famous men have been called by God, so its gonna be all of us now and some say the hurricane and cyclones and tsunami are the indication that world is coming to an end. And after reading and listening to all of these, I just say "What the Hell!!" Imagination going crazy huh. 

This post I am not writing on anything particular, I am just stressing on the fact that how we believe whatever we hear and see and not try to look into it whether it might be right or wrong...We all need to take a stand at every point of our life...it may vary from being bullied by your sibling or classroom scenes or trying to make a relationship work, or being a slave to your boss to unnecessary arrests, unjustified chaos in your city.. I know its easy to say than to do it but hey you never know, they might just read this and plot me down to where I am and arrest me...and the answer to that you already have it. There are this bunch of people who have decided to stand up for the right and fight against the wrong and because of these people those two Mumbai girls are safe and sound. But this bunch should turn and change into the entire population where we don't let circumstances come up where you have to fight for what you actually deserve. 

If you can't be active in the movement, make some passive contributions so that at the end of the day you are not just some ordinary person who is sitting in front of the television on the couch discussing how things are going wrong in the country, sipping a cup of coffee. You must be thinking what big i am achieving writing a blog post about it. Well they say, spread the word enough till it reaches where it should. 

Cheers!

Too many Chetan Bhagats in town!

When i write something every time, i try to write something new and interesting. And accept it, for how long will you people visit my blog to read tips on relationships, pros and cons of love, my theory of living life and my mantra of being happy. So today i am writing on this particular thought which is being a topic of discussion among a lot of people on a coffee table or maybe even during those morning and evening jogging sessions. There are A LOT of people out there who LOVE reading- starting from the ones who own a personal library at their houses to those who still issue books from the library to read to those who borrow from their friends to those who read a book when its in the news.

 I love reading and as i pick new ones every time when i have the urge to read, i visit online stores to buy books. For the past few weeks as I have been browsing through some books to order on flipkart,  I came across these list of books by Indian authors (specifically 'cause i didn't find any except the indians and no, don't judge me, its not that i am not being a good citizen and criticizing my own fellow citizens. Just telling what i noticed.)  and all had the same story line- love, relationship, sex, flings,college life and family issues. Its like suddenly everyone has started writing their autobiography on the basis of the little life that they have lived till date. No, there's nothing wrong in writing and in fact i encourage people to write 'cause its a very good habit. Just that if every college student starts writing about their college life and relationships, then its sad for us who love reading Paulo Coehlo, Sydney Sheldon, Robert Kiyosaki, Amitava Ghosh and so on!

Suddenly the publishing houses seem to care less about what are the ingredients and more about the dish. Like all they want is the green notes flowing into their bank accounts and their sales rising each day. But little do they realize that soon days will come when readers won't even bother looking at the cover, forget the summary. No offence to all those writers out there. I mean everyone has the same monotonous style and story line. I know its a very sensitive and controversial topic and i might be hated for this post but hey its a democratic country and freedom of speech is prevalent. 


Every other person is just trying to be Chetan Bhagat. One of him is good but too many of them is just too much! If you wanna talk about your life and love and relationships, keep a blog or write a journal. Its a bitter truth but we have our own lives to deal with rather than reading about yours. The media anyway makes sure we know about the celebrity life in and out and there's that to deal with. And if you love writing why not write something more adventurous or creative. I am not giving you some free piece of advice here, just letting out the word of how the whole trend of the section of so called 'romance' in the bookshelf is slowly fading away and how we readers go back to the authors who made us got committed to reading. We don't want a bacon collection here.

keep reading and keep writing!

cheers :)

music makes it easier!

wow! after a LONG time i am writing something and i won't be surprised if it turns out to be an ultimate disaster but then i have to write....'cause its been a while now. For some queer reason, i couldn't come up with anything to write on. Life is already something we know, why write about it more and make it complicated. When everything goes wrong, music is something we actually rely on to calm us down and live in some parallel universe which perhaps only exists for us in our minds. No, i am not trying to be Paulo Coehlo, telling you to strive for something and wait for it forever... no offence i meant. He is one of my favourite authors and his "The Alchemist" was an phenomenal experience for me. 

Returning to writing about music....When everything seems wrong, life is ruthlessly mean and you can't tolerate anything around, plugging those earphones on sometimes ( for me always), is an absolution.

I am not some kind of musician that i would criticize or suggest or discuss genres of music... My taste in music is nothing specific and i listen to anything that sets my mood right. Out there some of you love the soft, delicate and flowing music soothing you down, some love the deathly, loud, metal and some who just love tunes without words fascinating them always.... Its not about what we love, its about why we love! 

There is music in everything---whether it be those noisy traffic jams, or the serene opera shows, or the loud music concerts or maybe even the silence...if we want to hear it we will...Music is something that we create and we listen and we love. Hey, i am not going all about inspiring you all to learn music or its essence or blaahh.. I am just reminding you about those certain times when you want to cry your heart out, on the top of the mountain and shout the loudest ever...and trust me that's a GOOD feeling!! That iPod or mp3 player of yours serves you well in times of great need..to help you keep away from the crowd around and as i said take you into a parallel universe where its just about you!! After coming to college, one of the most precious possessions of mine are my earphones. I just can't walk out of my room for classes without them. And i know i am not the only one..many of you do it too...I am so particular about it that I avoid from sharing it :P

Everything is pretty much plain and boring without music if you ever noticed. Like, if you watch Game of Thrones, (which by the way is one hell of a show and it has got me way too much addicted to it), the background score that they have to every scene and also the title tune is just too good, so good that the music grabs a major attention...I know its weird how I brought in Game of Thrones when all i was blabbering about music above..sorry for that, watching it on a daily basis and completely hooked on it.

So how about some humming and singing or in worst cases bathroom singing, go ahead, put your playlist on shuffle and imagine yourself to Lady Gaga, Rihanna or maybe even Justin Timberlake and sing your heart out and please spare the neighbours by the way if your voice was not meant to be for singing :P keep yourself out of trouble, just saying :P and if by any chance you imagine yourself to be Justin Beiber, then you are gay....

Now I was definitely not planning that in my blog-post but can't help it, this is what the world talks about and  how could i shut up :P 

music forever!

Cheers :D

Be the kid again!

Was wondering what to write on and couldn’t think of it since days :/ okay I was obviously busy enjoying the perks of summer vacations :D after all, this is the only time I get mom’s food and all the pampering and you see all of us don’t reside at nearby cities to VIT(yeah, that’s where I am gonna rot the next 3 years). Some lucky chaps run off to their home at Chennai or Bangalore (I still prefer calling this rather than bengaluru) every chance they get. Anyway, we do somehow manage to have fun our own ways by not coming back to where we belong. Now as I thought of what to write, I almost covered a lot of things I usually go through or I think about or whatever…so this time I randomly came up with something to write , no nothing about the presidential elections or the Indian economy downfall…too boring for me to write and you to read and neither am I writing about Euro2012, you see I have football knowledge almost equal to zero(yes I agree) and those occasional times I watch them because of the hot players :P

It’s freaking hot in India and I am glad I am not there to suffer it all B) and for all of you there,I feel bad, survive the heat! I am sitting in Lagos(for all those of you reading this don’t know what lagos is, google it;)!) thank God! *phew* Summer vacations is one LONG,BIG break from your regular life. Now if you are thinking I am going to write some essay on summer vacations, I am not. For me summer vacations from childhood were always a trip to somewhere. I have travelled a lot since my childhood. Every summers was a chance for me to explore new places and I used to wait for the month of may because I knew my mom was going to pack bags and my dad was looking for places to go :D I have almost covered the entire 26 states of India, except for a few of them, fell short of school years L There was this one summer where I went to the north covering nainital, mussorie and further higher to Badrinath, snow in summer a bliss I tell youJ And every time I got to spend my birthday at different places :P explains my inconsistency. My 18^th I spent in Mauritius paragliding, now that’s more cool than to get drunk :D

yeah, that is some weird expression i am making there!

Though not my favourite season but it has still been a great one whenever I had plans for vacations. This summer I turned 19, no vacations and just looking through old albums where it was different me. Childhood is one of the best period of one’s life. How much ever you were beaten up for those naughtiness, how much ever you were scolded for your low marks(some of us are still screwed for it:P), how much ever you were told not to do this and that, but that was one hell of a freedom we had got. Freedom at its height I would say… College is no doubt fun but not more fun than running towards the swings and flying high with them, seemed as if we were on the top of the world, those times when friendship was just about being the best of friends, times when getting a chocolate for something was considered the greatest reward, times when the only relationships we knew about was with our family…those times are never going to come back. We find kids and their stupid activities annoying, but maybe you were one of those annoying kid. I miss being that free, I miss those times when all mistakes I did were forgotten saying , “ leave it, she is just a kid!” An anonymous saying, "today is the oldest you have ever been and the youngest you will ever be", true words!

But after all these years, there is still a small kid within us who just wants to run wild in the free without any boundaries. I know a friend of mine who is elder to me by few years in age but is such a kid and throws all kind of tantrums when it comes to fulfilling demands :P its said, youth is a state of mind. Be young at heart, and world will be much simpler than what it is. So unleash the child within you this summer and do something you last stopped when you were a child with no responsibilities.

Go ahead, open the fridge and grab some chocolates, eat as much ice-cream you want, go as wild as you can(now many of you, not going wild that way :P don't read between the lines XD) live life as you used to, and enjoy your summers like you never did before.

Cheers :D

Her endless journey

As dark as the storm clouds,

Blur like those foggy days,

Weak roots lie beneath the tree of life

Holding onto nothing would be precise.

Pulled by the evil forces behind,

As she tried taking a step in the journey unknown

Fell weak on her knees and looked up to faith.

She held in herself for ages, the agony and pain,

she mustered the courage to master the force,

For the justice she was never given,

For the revenge she never thought of taking.

She walked ahead without a direction,

But a destination clear as crystal.

She climbed upon life,

grabbing each branch as a hope,

rotten fruits all it gave but,

the seeds were her soul.

Never will she give up, till she found

The reason behind her misery.

Grabbing some bites of love and sips of joy,

Still searching and walking the endless journey.

mistakes: made any?

It's all about time and what is new one second, becomes old and forgotten the next second. We all have a journey to complete ahead in our life with uncountable milestones and numerous obstacles... out of the topic a bit, but this line reminds me of takeshi's castle :P damn i miss that show! anyway coming back on track, a journey on which we set upon to give our self a motive to live and define our ways. The morning everyday brings with it new surprises, a package of hopes and beliefs. I too wake up everyday thinking, what if today turns out to be that extra-ordinary day where i don't commit a single mistake and set ahead my footsteps for the rest of the day..but that never happens :P i have to make at least one mistake through out the day. But then flaws makes one awesome B)



Thinking of the past, there are huge blunders i have made and coming to think of it now, maybe I wasn't given a good set of choices or maybe i was too bad at the whole decision making process.

1. First mistake, I made few pathetic people my "so called friends". Oh yeah, they deserve the word pathetic and i would love to cross the line to define them with some of the most absurd adjectives in the dictionary but why waste time, energy and words :P all of them are precious :D Actually thanks to them that now i have such a great set of friends. What i learnt from this was that, do NOT trust one much unless you feel fully comfortable. Friends reminds me, how much i enjoyed that series so far, it's one of the most hilarious and fun show i have seen...any of you reading this who had not seen friends must see it ASAP..

2. Whoever said love is beautiful forgot its a joint account with something called  a "relationship" which has it's own terms and conditions and also some hidden issues. Wake up people, life is not a fairy tale and there is no one perfect for us. I have been in quite a few relationships and as per my personal experience, i would say it's a waste of time and emotions. Every time I decided not to let the seriousness factor get in between, it somehow did and i miserably failed. Soft hearts like me have to go through some tagged dialogues like "it was nothing great, move on!" or "oh! get over it, there are a lot of fish in the ocean." Saying is hell easy, come and do it bitches, you will feel it then. Lol! i can  actually do an entire thesis on relationships but too boring it would be. And so if you suck at the whole relationship stuff, how about trying something called "flirtationship", no term and conditions, not at all exclusive and you can have all the fish in the ocean. ;)

3. Ah! This mistake I am sure i have a lot of people with me :D Has there been times when you started with something with full enthusiasm and left it incomplete 'cause it was uninteresting and boring. I have done that a  millions of times and i am not proud of it at all. Quite regretful I would say. There comes times till date in my life where i go like "only if i had done that" :| Trust me it's a terrible feeling and something literally eats me up inside. So if possible, try completing the under construction work and start some men at work sites.





Spoke about mistakes enough eh, i know no one likes to hear about mistakes and regret about it. But this not any shitty piece of advice, its something where while reading you would find your own mistakes in mine and the rest who didn't can enjoy their ice-scream without a spill.

And when you tired of making mistakes, why not escape to a new place where no one cares and no one gives a damn about what you do. Where it's all about you and your dreams and how you chase it...

mumbai : the city of dreams!

Have an amazing summer, make it your own way, make some mistakes and rectify few of them. After its summer, a little controversial and interesting it has to be, otherwise the charm of summer gets lost  and you lose all the fun.





Go ahead make some new friends, do some new stuff, grab a beer and chill out \m/

cheers!

The drama, the gossip and the limelight..

Past five months have been the worst of my life so far. So much happened in so little time and the drama, yes that is more spicier than the ones running on television.... Here in my college I bet people never run out of topics to talk 'cause they get all the gossip they want to. Gossip reminds me, a very close of friend of mine who LOVES to gossip and for his this habit I call him gay :P Boys don't be surprised please. The favourite topic of discussion shifts from soccer and cricket to "what's the relationship status of that hot chick" and "what's the scene between the couple boss?" talks. And nothing surprising also and neither am I denying that we girls don't but we atleast accept the fact :P

 Recently in a regular conversation, some one mentioned how we all are no less than 90210...and later i thought about it and laughed and he was so damn right...No one likes being in the limelight for the bad, and no one likes to be stared at when walking around either but when you know what's the truth and how you are, walk with your head high plus ignorance is bliss. Not to forget more the people you know, more you will be talked about.




When the fire is ready to be lit, a lot of hands with the fuel come forward but none raise their hands to stop the fire. I don't  blame those individuals who love talking about people behind the back and gossip and bitch around about them because this place does not leave one with any option better than that. I am not saying that I don't gossip but yes i don't instigate a rumour nor do I give one a lift by confirming it. Some in this process do not realize that the other person might just lose all the respect he or she ever held around people. Whatever one might say, but i would always say do not just judge the book by it's cover, you never know what's the story inside. I know most of you who are reading this by now must have guessed the stories,situation and the characters. But then, me and all of us learnt a lesson and will never forget it. Whatever the circumstance is, some turn out to be the victim and some are guilty.

A mindset is something that doesn't take much time to change. If you were known for the good and now you are known for the bad then rectify your mistakes and make them realize that a few actions cannot change who you are and what will you always be. Obstacles a part of the game of life and all of them can be crossed with the help of some dedication and confidence. I have always been there for my friends and situations were such that i had to choose my friend over the right, but then i faced the storm with them and sailed with them on the rough sea knowing that it might take forever to witness the clear sky.

Every gossip and rumour fades away with time, and so does bad times of life. Ups and downs are an important ingredient in the recipe of "how to survive life"! So go ahead and live the world however you want to, because at the end of the day people who love you will be there to welcome you back with their open arms and walk with you the rest of the journey. And if that doesn't help  :p sometimes revenge is a dish best served cold for whatever disaster ever happened with you! ;) :P

cheers !

For the man I will always love !

For every daughter or son her/his dad is the best in the whole world and so is mine for me. Writing about him is probably the best thing i can ever write about. At times when you need that one pillar of support, one ray of hope and that one hand to hold during the black days, I look up to my father. There are some terrible mistakes that i have made and probably no one would ever forgive me for them, but he always did and took me back with his wide arms open. When everyone turns their back on me, he is the one who accepts me with all my flaws.

   There are countless memories with him and all of those fresh in my mind and heart because none of them are worth to be forgotten. I had my first ever drink with my dad not just for the sake of drinking but because he did not want to get embarrased later on if he came to know that i drank, but he can be proud that i had my first drink with him.

picture source : Amrath Sait

a friend's amazing photography caught this click and every time i see this picture i remember my beach days :) really the safest craddle is a father's arm !

A father is a very important existence in one's life and for me the most important. A friend with whom I can share all of what i have been through, all my success, my failures, humiliations and proud moments, a buddy, a mentor and a great father at the end of everything. And so today i am writing this 'cause i have nothing to give him for all what he did ever for me, thank you is nothing and gifts won''t reach all the way to the other continent :P plus it would be from his on credit card and that''s like he gifting himself something, not cool :P

So this is what I can do maximum to make him feel special on his special day. I have always been there on all your birthdays from the past 17 years and this one blame college and not me. But then even from miles away I am sure my best wishes, love and blessing will reach you no matter where your are. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

                                             

                          You are still young, don't mind me passing those " you have become old " comments, it's just me, and youth is a state of mind, you know it ;) you are the coolest dad i have seen and i am so lucky to have you. :D

My evergreen hero and my first love, yes you are :)

have a great birthday and don't miss me too much :*

limits and love

this one was long time back i had written but never really put it up :)


Endless and exclusive,
no rules,no limits and no bounds
thats how i learnt to love 
and will keep on loving.

Fearing none, caring least of the world,
I do not love to live rather i live to love
promised to be there till my last breathe
and after death my soul by your side

Had lost all hopes,to love and to be loved,
u guided me to a beginning with u
never expected you to happen
but now love the happening

Dedicating myself to you,denying rest's thoughts 
at the end of the day,all i know is i love you
its u who matters and not the world
'cause its u who taught me to love and be loved again

Taste of Life!

There are a hell lot of life changing moments that happen everyday and some are just way too prominent to always leave their footprints in our lives. Some with which we just have to walk with and some to leave behind. But the sad part is when you see something similar happening to a close one of yours through which we have already been through. Hurts to the core and brings back those moments which we never wanted to recall. About such situations what i learnt is to make the best effort to stop others to make the same mistakes which are responsible for a disturbed present which was once a pleasant past. No, i did not just mix up the words. It’s just how everything just falls into its place and some just don’t.

First of all to make sure we do not have that someday when we sit alone and at the back of our mind we regret some decisions. So please don’t make any decision in haste and give everything a time. Thinking too much is also a big danger for the decision. Sometimes we need to act selfless and think about the consequences that the people connected to our life would face after we decide for ourselves. I know we don’t have time to sit and ponder about every small thing but those small things build up to the big stories of our lives. I was asked how can I be so affected by two other people being separated and my answer was ‘cause I was in those shoes and walking in them is a task that is not easy. I am no guru to advice on life, love and decisions, but I am that one person who has tasted that bite of life, love and decisions and it was not a good experience over all. But again one should have the cook’s best and the worst make.

Every sculptor is not a perfectionist at his work but by every flaw he makes in one of his sculpture he makes sure not to repeat it. Not only that, he in fact learns from the flaws of others and makes none of those blunders. The same way as much as we learn from our own mistakes, we are supposed to learn more from other’s to make our self someone better. A friend of mine mentioned once that life would be boring if it was less complicated, and yes i would not agree less.

So if someone is responsible for that frown on your face, you be responsible for a smile on someone’s face. If life was the way we wanted it, it would have been less twisted and interesting. Not that it being all twisted is making everyday any easier. But it all comes with the package. Give everything a chance and what if it might just turn out to be what we craved for.

This piece i wrote not to send a message to all of you reading this but it was just an effort of me to let you all not face what I went through. A part of everything is good but not too much of it. Anyway readers, go back to what you were up to and once again do not think too much and just go with the flow but grip to the precious things in your life.

Cheers people!

Unfound reasons

                                                        

Sleepless nights pass by

With blank thoughts in my mind

Feeling nothing at all

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Alone and not a soul to comfort,

Emptiness is my new friend

Never leaves, never betrays

Never lies nor does hurt.

 

Clinging onto me and my all

Those memories have taken control

On my mind, heart and soul

And I unable to find an escape

I still wonder a reason not to be with.

Not a hand to hold, not a shoulder to cry

My heart still beats for the love

And my eyes cry for the lies

Waiting at the same corner of separation

I stand and wait for everything I had.

Knowing those questions don’t have any answer

Nor do I stand a chance of revival

But I will still stand and wait,

Wondering a reason not to be with.

Living it up, Sipping it down!

While I am writing this, I have earphones plugged into my ears and full volume music. No, I am not ignoring the world, I am just trying to shut myself into my world of thoughts and memories and some of the times I never got a chance to express myself about.

Something about me, I am a person who does not like bothering people unless its real necessary, I keep to myself as much as I can and also make sure I am not a pain in the ass for others. Now if you reading this, you have a question why is she like this? I just have one answer- I am being me!

I have not been keeping well for the last one week and I am still not in my best health conditions. Leaving apart the technical and medical terms, there was this one major thing that did not let me become well and that was those unanswered questions in my life. I was still trying to find the answers to those questions and find the reasons to behind every happening unless I fell asleep last night. And today morning when I woke up, I realised maybe I don’t need to find them and maybe they will find us. For everything there is a perfect time and for this also times will come when I will have my answers and reasons which I have been searching for. Till then go on with life as its going on and don’t try to be a detective.

I do cry a lot and to prove that point there wouldn’t be a lack of people to justify that. But I don’t regret crying because I know I am sensitive and it’s a part of my nature with which I was born in this world. Just because some people point their fingers and laugh at me or make this whole thing a nuisance saying I create scenes, I can’t change myself. Let them call me names and term me anything but I don’t care. People whom I really care about, what they think are perfectly fine with me crying and will always take me back no matter what. A good thing about crying, it does lighten my heart and I feel as if some strong weight is lifted from my heart. So the next time you are sad, and you want to shed a drop of tear, don’t hesitate and go ahead.

Sometimes all you require is that heart to heart conversation with that old pal of yours whom you forgot or did not get time in months to sit and talk about anything and everything. Personal experience, it makes you feel amazing and better than ever. Let it be over a coffee, or a lunch date or maybe just a simple conversation while walking- whatever it is, have one so that it makes you feel that after all you are not a bad friend and neither did you insult being a friend J After all what friends are for ;)

To keep yourself away from the bothering situations of life and wailing times, keep yourself busy with whatever you can. I have suffered and I know how terrible it is when you see all your close ones being close to other chaps and you stay behind like a loser and nothing to do. To ignore everything happening around that causes stress and tension, do something that brings a smile on your face and makes you happy for a change. My year started off at a bad note and has not been going on quite well- dealing with family tantrums, relationship issues, academic hassle and trying to figure out who really my friends are to be carried along the next four years. But, optimistic as I always have been, I am praying things are back on track with everything perfect as it was. I always believe in karma and hope. Karma is a bitch but to those who are not worth the smooth roads and to those who are worth the joyous rides of life, I am sure the good times are yet to come J. And as for hope, it’s a matter of survival in every situation. So live with the hope and walk ahead with it as it will never ever leave you.

Bored of what you are then give yourself a change. But careful don’t change because others want you to, bring a change in yourself if only you want it and only for good. Makeovers don’t only happen of your external appearance, a makeover of your internal personality is very important. Its always what we want to show people and not we are. So show the world what you are and prove their judgement of you wrong. Not every word of what you have been thought as is right, sometimes there’s this feeling which we get by proving people wrong and it feels so awesome. Don’t make others realise the importance of your presence, make them realise how their life would be by making them realise your absence. No, I am not giving you lectures on life and blah! I am just summarising on few of those feelings I went through in the past two weeks and how I have been dealing with it and I am not gonna be a loser ‘cause everyone was born to be a winner.

Go ahead, live your life the way you want to, but live it right and correct.

CHEERS TO LIFE!